~School
Right now it really feels that all the students (almost) keep me as an American man. I mean there r yet some questions but pretty seldom. In hall ways, during luch and periods people talks me in same way they do with others. So I'm really happy now that i'm not weirdo anymore, even though it was cool at start. I think I'm a part of every group which we have in different. Everything is so automatic and normal (every day same schedule) and it's really safe and comfortable feeling to be at school. There are frustating moments with storys and texts of which I don't understand like any words, but I've started to get used to it. I'm still acting in pretty shy way 'cause I don't have so many things to say of stuff I haven't done. For more when there's buncha people I do some mistakes at times and saying something that makes sense to converstations it's hard also sometimes. That outsider-emotion is still bothering me a little, comparing my clown-role in Finland while periods there. But it's coming better I think. I felt myself as an outsider in the first day at school like 99,9%, right now it's like 7% I think and it will be zero after a moment. Finally I have to tell u guys that I'm often so tired at school, so I will change my routin, force myself to go to bed earlier than... cats! I bet when I'm not tired I'm more social. But there's no so much time to speak during the school day, but I have to use the time better. After all I can say I really like being at school and after a moment it will be even more fun when I will have more common memories this gonna be perfect!
~ Football
I have seriously got into the whole game. Every day I wait our practice to start. Even though I have more bruises than skin right now, I don't care! But I care about that our season will be over after two weeks... That's kinda sad, but 3 weeks break from sports after that is really good for change too. I love my team. They treat me as a part of the team, cares about me and I care about them. I enjoy football and run to the field with smile which changes serious face on the field while blocking and tackling. All the physically pain doesn't ever bother me 'cause I'm feeling so good inside my brains.
~ Important people in USA
Family. I love them all. I'm feeling as a family member and it warms my heart really much! I can talk with them about everything. If I have a bad day (which I have like never) I will and I can tell the reason to my family. Sitting in a dinner table feels so good, my family here together. We come along really good. We have had no arguments at all. There's no day without hugs. I have no words to describe how happy I am to be a member of this family. The reason why I'm happy every day, the biggest reason is this family. I'm feeling relaxed, being myself, superhappy, funny with these people I already love. An athmosphere is even warmer than weather right now (30 celsius). I'm the most lucky person in the world to live with the best family in the United States.
Friends. I have found like 10 friends already, and some people I can talk with. It's really hard to find some time to all new friends and get known them. I can say that I already have one really good friend and with him I have hanged out pretty often. Other friends are also goos but I need more time to getting known each other and then they will be better friends. During schoolweek it's impossible nut in weekends if there's nothing important going on I always try to hang out with some friends. I really hope like next weekend I could hang out with buncha people, it's a good way to get known buncha people at the same time. Talking with just one guy is easier than in a big group and I feel more confident and comfortable with just one guy. But it's gonna change, I think, when I will hang out more with groups. Time heels! I bet I'm gonna get many friends which stay as my friends when I come back to Finland.
~ Important people in Finland
My parents. I have realized how much I love them when I have been gone. They will always be my love ones. I read their e-mails. letter and everything in a different way now that I did in Finland, that's obvious I bet. There's sometimes little tears in my eyes when I read some e-mail from my parents. Of course I miss them at times, but I have so much stuff to dfo and I love my American family so there's usually not that kinda "missing you"-times. But sometimes after I have read their e-mail, before I've fallen asleep, I miss them or I think it's better to say: think how's they are doing, all our memories together, what kinda life wil be when I come back.
Love friends. There are same kinda things with missing friends that it's with parents. So much memories and always I hope that i would do those, but I think I'm gonna do them when I come back. Facebook is a good place to check how's everybody doing. Calling in skype, sending messages on Facebook it's not the same thing at all than hanging out in real life, but I'm okay with that. Time flies as u know and I will have the rest of my life to spend with my friends I love and right now my life is here. Love u guys and wil always! I bet we'll make this and be as good friends as the time I left here. Don't worries, I think about u guys and nobody replace u! See you after 8 months, right now I see still happiness here even though miss u guys at times when I have time to think a lot.
~ Right now
I'm feeling happy (as almost 247) and tired. I used to stress a lot about things like "What I will do then?" "When is that?" "What should I with that?" But now I'm not stressing at all, thanks for my host mom who waked me up! I also got today a letter from my grandparents, a postcard and photos from my parents. I can say they almost made me cry in the middle of living room. So now I can go sleep with a big smile.
'til next time
sensitive guy in this time
Sami
ps. 2 months !
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